Hunting (Elena)

[Stefan Salvatore]

Stefan paced as he waited for Elena. He knew that animal blood wasn't what Elena was really craving, but Anna was still trying to teach him how to control the bloodlust and it wouldn't be fair to make her babysit two vampires. And yes, he had used the word babysit. Because that's basically what she had to do with him. And he wasn't going to put that kind of responsibility on her again. Realistically, he knew that Elena would have to go on human blood sooner or later, but he was hoping that this would at least be a good starting point for her.

He blew out a non-existent breath and he rubbed his hands on his jeans. To be perfectly honest, he was feeling a little jittery, but he supposed that it was no surprise as he had sneaked a bag of blood out of Damon's stash. And yes, he realized that it was stupid and dangerous to do it alone, but he needed it. He had to get stronger. He couldn't just rely on animal blood alone anymore. Okay, yes, he was helping Elena hunt animals, but it was just so that she could get used to blood and the hunt in general. When she felt that she was ready to move on to the human stuff, he'd let her. He knew that it was better for her her as it'd keep her strong and he wanted that for her: she had to be strong if she wanted to hope to defend herself against Katherine. Katherine. Oh, how he hated her. He had hated her ever since he had turned, though she was utterly convinced that he was in love with her. He wasn't though. He was only in love with Elena.

Speaking of Elena, where was she? It wasn't like her to be late like this. Had something happened to her? Calm down, Stefan. It's probably nothing, he thought to himself. But how could he calm down? His psycho of a Sire was on the loose and Elena was a brand-new vampire. If they got into it, there would be no way that his girlfriend would be able to defend herself. Or maybe she would. He really had no idea how much of a fighter Elena actually was. Okay granted, she had done pretty well against that vampire that was stalking her, but the guy hadn't exactly been the sharpest tool in the shed. Katherine was a different story though. Which was why he had agreed to let Anna help him get control of the bloodlust. Hopefully, he'd be able to do the same with Elena.

[Elena Gilbert]

Elena had just come from running into Anna who so pleasantly told her about her and Stefan's little randevu in New York. She couldn't believe he would do this to her. She absolutely couldn't believe it. She was heart broken and crushed and all of that was magnified times ten because she was a recently turned vampire. Everything was running on over drive. She wasn't herself. Anything could make her cry, anything could make her angry and trust her, it did.

Elena went back to her house before she headed to see Stefan. She stared at her mascara tears in the mirror as she wiped them and sniffed. Her nose was red and her cheeks were puffy, it was obvious she had been crying. She cleaned herself up and the left again, to meet Stefan.

She found him in the woods and walked up, not saying one word to him. She didn't know what to say or where to begin. She felt like someone literally just tore her heart out of her chest and stomped on it like it was nothing. She was so broken hearted. She didn't know where to begin. She didn't even look at him. Instead she looked out at a view in the distance from the top of the mountain they were on.

[Stefan Salvatore]

Stefan continued to pace as his eyes clouded with some concern. Where was Elena? This wasn't like her. Maybe he should call her. Yeah, calling her was a good idea. With that, he he reached into his jeans pocket and pulled out his phone and started dialing. However, before he got very far, he heard the sound of approaching footsteps and turned to see Elena.
"Hey. I was just about to call you," he stated, as he stopped what he was doing, locked his phone, and then put it back in his pocket. He had been getting worried, but it looked like that had been for nothing. Elena was fine. Well, physically anyway, but it would seem that she wasn't doing well emotionally or mentally as she looked like she had been crying. "What is it? What's the matter?" he wondered, his voice laced with his concern and his body going on the alert. Was someone in trouble? If so, the hunting lesson could wait until later.

Then his brows furrowed in confusion as she came up and then refused to look at him, instead choosing to stare off into the distance.
"Hey, what's wrong?" he asked again, glancing at her, his concern growing. He wanted to put his arms around her, but he knew her well enough to know that this wouldn't be appreciated. He glanced at her and he wanted to die at her heartbroken expression. "Elena, what is it? What happened?" he asked in concern. Something or someone had obviously hurt her, he just didn't know what. "Hey. You can talk to me," he told her. After all this time, he had thought that she knew that. "What's happened?" he wondered, his voice laced with undisguised worry. He was starting to get a really bad feeling. Something was up. He just didn't know what...

OOC
Sorry this is so short. I'll try to make the next post longer.

[Elena Gilbert]

Elena heard Stefan talking to her but she couldn't find the words right now to reply to him. She was crushed. Elena shook her head a little as he kept saying she could talk to him. "Yea, I thought I could also Stefan" She said with the hurt in her voice clear. She turned to look at him and crossed her arms. "Okay. Fine. Let's talk. What actually happened in New York? Hm?" She asked him, waiting for him to put two and two together that she knew. "You know Stefan…all of this is new to me. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know how to live anymore, I don't know how to do anything anymore…I'm so new at this that I don't even have a ring from Bonnie yet. but that's okay, because I expected all of this the minute Katherine killed me but…but this? You were supposed to be there for me! You were supposed to be the one getting me through this and helping me…protecting me! And instead you should have just been the one to snap my neck a few days ago…" She said walking up to him and facing him head on. "It would have hurt a hell of a lot less" She said very fiercely.

Elena was crying and screaming at Stefan as she said all of that, but the last part she said calmly, staring daggers into his eyes as she took one last look at him before turning and starting to walk away.

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sorry mine's short also…they'll get longer I'm sure lol

[Stefan Salvatore]

Stefan looked at Elena in confusion as she said that she had thought she could talk to him about anything as well.
"What do you mean?" he wondered. Why would she think that she couldn't talk to him? And why did she sound so hurt? When she asked him what really happened in New York, he tensed. Oh, damn, he thought to himself. She had somehow found about his near tryst he had had with Anna. No wonder she was upset. "Elena, nothing happened," he told her. However, he wasn't sure if she had ever heard him. Most likely not as she was really upset.

He fell silent as she reminded him that everything was new to her, that she didn't know who she was, that she didn't know how to live anymore, and that that she didn't have a daylight ring from Bonnie, which was fine because she had expected it after Katherine killed her, and that he was supposed to be helping her through everything and protecting, and instead, it should've been him who snapped her neck a few days ago as it would've hurt a whole less.
"Okay, you have every right to be upset. But Elena, I promise you. Nothing happened," he repeated. Well, except he had gotten his feelings hurt. He really did need to apologize to Anna for comparing her to Katherine and accusing her of screwing with his head when she had only been looking out for the both of them. But that would have to come later. Right now he had to calm down his rightfully upset girlfriend.

When she started to walk away, Stefan blurred by her, intending to get in front of her and stop her.
"Elena, wait. Please," he said, reaching out to take her hand. He couldn't let her go away thinking that he had betrayed her. Granted, she had every right to feel the way she did because he technically had, but Anna had stopped him before they had done something incredibly foolish. "We had been drinking, we got really drunk and things escalated a bit, yes, I'll admit that. But Anna stopped it before we did anything we would end up regretting," he told her. And he was very well aware that this would totally get him slapped, but she deserved to know the truth. "I'm so sorry. I know I should've told you," he apologized. Yeah, he was pretty much screwed.

[Elena Gilbert]

Elena heard Stefan protest that nothing happened. That was the opposite of what she had just hear. What was his idea of nothing happening? Elena looked at him and crossed her arms, taking a very defensive stance. "Did you kiss her?" She asked him point blah. "You say nothing happened, did you kiss her?" She asked him staring into his eyes. As Stefan took her arm into his to get her to stop walking, Elena jerked it away.

"No Stefan! You were supposed to be the one person on this entire earth besides jeremy that would never hurt me! You PRIDE yourself on protecting me, so who's protecting me when the reality is that I need a protector from my own boyfriend? I understand why katherine did what she did….she's a cold hdd bitch with no redeeming qualities. But…you? To say you just ripped out my heart is the understatement of the century" She said looking at him and shaking her head, disgusted.

Elena's eyes widened when he tried to defend himself by saying Anna stopped things. "ANNA stopped things. Not YOU but ANNA. yet you're the one with the girlfriend." she said as she took a step further so she was facing him but didn't look at him. Instead she got close to his ear and whispered. "You know what disgusts me the most? Knowing exactly what would have happened if Anna didn't stop you. Because god knows we both know you wouldn't have stopped it" She said and with that she put both of her hands on his chest and used her vampire force to throw him back. She was new to this, yes, but she was also incredibly strong. Bonnie said it had something to do with her being the doppleganger. She used that against Stefan right now as she watched him fly backwards with much force to it.

[Stefan Salvatore]

Stefan let out an unneeded breath as Elena crossed her arms, taking a defensive stance as she asked if he had kissed her. repeating his statement that nothing had happened before echoing her question of whether or not they had kissed. Yeah, she was pissed. Not that he could blame. She had just found out that he had betrayed her.
"Yes. We kissed," he admitted. There was no sense in lying to her. What good would that do? He wasn't sure how his girlfriend had found out, but he hadn't meant for her to find out from someone else. He had fully intended to tell her, but then everything had gotten crazy with Katherine coming back and killing her and he had been focused on helping her deal with her transition.

When he tried to take her hand, she jerked away, saying that he was supposed to be the one guy besides Jeremy who would never hurt her, reminding him that he had prided himself on protecting her, wanting to know who was protecting her from him.
"You're absolutely right. I'm the one who screwed up," he agreed. Why do I always screw things up? he wondered. He then visibly winced when she said that she had understood why Katherine had done what she had done as she was a coldhearted bitch with no redeeming qualities, but he was different and that to say that he had ripped out her heart would be the understatement of the century, accentuating her point with a look of hurt. "I'm so sorry," he said and then gave a mental scoff. As if that could make it all better. He might as well have just drove a stake through her heart. There wasn't anything that he could say to make this better.

And telling her that it had been Anna who had stopped things was a bad idea as she latched onto the statement, once more repeating what he had said, reminding him that he had been the one with a girlfriend and yet he hadn't been the one to put a stop to things.
"You're right. I'm the one who should've stopped it," he agreed. Even if he was drunk and high on the bloodlust, he should've kept himself in check, and he hadn't. His eyes then clouded with pain as she leaned forward and told him that he disgusted her as she had a good idea what would've happened if Anna hadn't stopped things. Then, before he knew it, she had shoved him back, causing him to fly into a tree. Damn, she was strong. Stronger than most new vampires.

A few moments later, he rose to his feet, wincing in pain. Yeah, he definitely needed to get more human blood in his system.
"I'm so sorry. I never meant to keep it from you. I had every intention of telling you and then Katherine turned you and I was so focused on helping you deal with that, it honestly just slipped my mind," he told her. Not that he was trying to make an excuse for not telling her. He just wanted her to know that he hadn't deliberately kept this from her.

[Elena Gilbert]

As soon as Stefan looked her in the eyes and said that they kissed, she slapped him across the face, hard. "How dare you stand here and tell me nothing happened! I don't give a shit if you actually had sex with her or not, a kiss is a kiss!" She said looking at him. She felt extremely betrayed and she was so hurt that HE was the one who betrayed her. Elena listened to him apologize again and again.

"You know what Stefan, sometimes sorry doesn't cut it" She said softly. "Imagine if I were standing here right now telling you I kissed Damon, giving him EXACTLY what he wants without giving you a second thought….you feel that pain in your chest? Now magnify that times ten because what you did to me ACTUALLY happened. " She said knowing that would hurt him because they both knew how in love Damon was with her. Elena started standing there, thinking about the scene in her head. Thinking about exactly what would have happened if Anna didn't stop it. This thought broke her heart. Who was this man standing before her? She didn't recognize him. it wasn't Stefan. it wasn't HER Stefan. It wasn't the guy she fell in love with. Not even remotely close.

This thought brought tears to her eyes. Her emotions were still high strung and she had no control over them. Elena started crying and she shook her head looking at him. "How could you?" She asked him as she wiped a tear away. After she shoved him hard she saw him struggling to get up. She listened to him talk and then chuckled slightly, nodding her head. (slipped my mind) he said. "Right, the same way I slipped your mind that night. The same way it was so easy for you to forget my feelings, for you to forget all about me!" She said getting more and more frustrated until she couldn't take it anymore and started walking away.

[Stefan Salvatore]

OOC
Forgot to put this earlier, but this takes place a little after "Desperate Measures".

IC
After he admitted to the kiss, she slapped him hard, shouting at him and asking him how he dared to stand in front of her and say that nothing happened, adding that she didn't give a shit whether or not they had had sex, a kiss was still a kiss.
"You're absolutely right. I totally screwed up," he said, looking at her. When he saw the hurt look on her face, his throat muscles constricted. Damn it. I did that to her. I really screwed up. Why am I always screwing things up? he wondered. She had every right to be upset with him. She had trusted him and he had betrayed her. Why did he always screw things up? Even as a human, he had made a habit of making stupid mistakes. And this one really took the cake. Why did he to let himself get drunk like that? He should've known better. It wasn't like he had been with Lexi. Lexi wouldn't have let him make such a complete fool out of himself and he wouldn't be begging for Elena's forgiveness. Not that he deserved any. No, he wouldn't be surprised if she staked him and washed her hands of him. And really, he didn't deserve anything less.

He fell silent as she said that sometimes sorry just didn't cut it, adding that she wondered how he'd feel if their situations were reversed and he had found out that she had done something with Damon. He knew exactly how he'd feel: hurt, angry, betrayed, confused, etc. Almost as if she knew what he was thinking---and he wouldn't be surprised if she did---she told him to think about the pain he felt and magnifying it by ten, which was how she had felt since he had done it to her. Yep. I'm an idiot, he thought to himself. He had made his bed and now he had to lie in it.
"I screwed up. I was stupid," he said softly. Yeah, him screwing up was nothing new, but to think that he had involved Elena in this---how stupid could he be? How come he was always sabotaging the good things he got? You sabotage them because you know you don't deserve them, a small part of him whispered, but he pushed it down. He was not going to get started on a pity-party. He didn't deserve one. He was not the victim here. The only blameless one in this situation was Elena. She was the injured party, not him.

When she started to cry, his throat muscles constricted. He had done this to her. He had hurt her when he had promised her and himself that he never would. So much for that promise. You really are a monster, he thought to himself.
"Elena, I know I was stupid. I..." his voice trailed off as he realized that there was nothing that he could say that would make any of this better. And apparently admitting that it had slipped his mind to tell her about that night was the worst thing he could have said, as she latched on to what he had said, saying that it had been easy for him to forget about her and her feelings. "I screwed up, plain and simple," he told her. Yeah. That was pretty much par for the course for him. He was always screwing up.

When she started to walk away, he used his powers to try to catch up with her, intending to block her path.
"Elena, wait, please," he said, going to grab her arms. "I screwed up, I know that. And I know this is a lot harder because you've just transitioned and everything's magnified, but please...don't go," he pleaded. They needed to talk about this. He knew that there was no way she'd ever forgive him, but he didn't want her to be bogged down by overwhelming negative emotions. That was like torture to a vampire and he didn't want her to go through that. She'd never survive it. At least...not unless she shut everything off and he didn't want that for her.